Poohki's Thotful Spot

Ugh......... Another day that I have to try to function on about four hours of sleep. Rory and I went to our friends' house last night to have dinner and watch the Broncos game (don't get me started on that debacle), and got home kinda late. So it was pretty much straight to bed as soon as we got home, but I tossed and turned until well after midnight. When I finally did manage to fall asleep, Rory would start snoring and wake me up. I finally resorted to the ear plugs, but they're so uncomfortable to sleep in. So I tossed and turned for four more hours until the alarm went off at 4:40. Yay. He always feels so bad to know that he kept me awake all night, so I've stopped telling him. When he asks me what's wrong I just say I'm tired and leave it at that. Yeah, I'm a martyr. At least one of us is sleeping......

Add to that my anxiety over my medical crap and it's safe to say that life is kinda crappy today. I see my doctor on Wednesday afternoon when she'll hopefully approve another damn prescription. I hope this is the one that gets me better because I really want to feel better (I won't go into unless someone really wants to know because it's really involved). I'm popping so many pills a day that I may as well open a pharmacy and make some money off it. Don't worry--most of my pills are supplements, but I need every one of them. Anyway.........

Yeah. Hope I can sleep tonight........

*sigh* Why is it that when I try to make a decision for myself that I end up feeling like I've let people down? I've been thinking of taking a break from (and possibly leaving entirely) Tae Kwon Do. I know, not exactly a world-shattering decision, but it is a pretty important one for me. I've been doing TKD for three years now and I'm a purple belt. That's high-intermediate, but still a long way from black belt. For most of the year, I've felt kind of ambivalent about going and have missed more classes than I've gone. I told myself that I would keep at it as long as I thought it was fun, and I've lost that fun feeling. Now it feels more like a chore. It has nothing to do with the people or the sport itself--it's all me. I want to keep going to the school, but to use the cardio equipment instead of do TKD. My husband is still going and says that it's my decision to make and that he'll support me no matter what I decide. I'm going with him tonight to talk with my instructor and explain my situation. I know some people will see it as me copping out and just quitting, but it's also a health issue. I don't have the physical stamina to keep putting my body through strenuous classes several times a week and think I'll do better on my own workout regimen. I wish I didn't feel like such a quitter, but there are so many things I want to devote my time to, and by the time I'm done with a TKD class, I have neither the time nor the energy to do anything else. Thanks for letting me vent.......

Hehe! I've been nudged! Thanks, Patrick! :D

I've been busy lately. I'm leaving on vacation in exactly one week and will be gone for two weeks, so I've been trying to get everything ready. You know, all those last minute purchases, all of the arrangements to be made, etc. I'm such an anxious planner and list maker, and I must be driving my poor husband nuts with all of my nit-picky details. It'll be lots of fun, though! It'll be the first time on a cruise ship for both of us, and we're really looking forward to it!

I've also been busy with the shiny new forum that Pinky Forum-Mommy Inga set up for Pullips and other dolls. I'm an admin over there, so I've been trying to get graphics made and set things up for our new members. It's a lot of work, and I have a new appreciation for everything that Inga's been doing for the Pinky forum. I can already tell that the new forum will be a great place for doll lovers to gather. If you want to join us, please do! We'd love to have you (http://pullip.pinky-street.com/index.php)!

Well, I better get back to it, so that's it for now.

Would someone please check my head and see if the insanity is visible? I managed to resist my husband for a whole year, but I finally decided to go ahead and give snowboarding a try about a month ago. The first day completely sucked and the second wasn't a lot better, but I went up a couple more times and was doing okay. I went again this past Sunday and discouraged myself all over again trying to learn how to turn. I took so many bad falls that I'm surprised I'm not more bruised than I am. The worst part is that my muscles (primarily my arms) are so sore that it pains me to think about going to my Tae Kwon Do class tonight. I know I'll get the hang of boarding, but it's coming kind of slow for me. It just bugs me to no end that my husband is a natural and was going down regular runs on his second day, whereas I'm still a bunny-sloper and may not make it down a regular run until next season. Grrrr...... But then, he did grow up in SoCal, riding skateboards and surfboards. Oh yeah, I'll be getting a skateboard this weekend so I can pratice off the snow. I never thought I'd be a skatergirl! And in case you were wondering, no, I've never been on a skateboard. But hey, at least I'm trying new things, right? Ugh! Where's the ibuprofen?

Hayley finally got fed up with me neglecting her for things so silly as remodeling a bathroom (how dare I be so heartless?), so we spent some time together today and she ended up with a new look. It's not a drastic change, but she's even more adorable now (beware, the world may explode from the sheer cuteness). Enjoy!



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Yes, I'm here! I know, it was a whole 24 hours from signing up to posting my first entry. I work at the speed of light over here (hehe). No, I've just been busy at work getting ready for a meeting next week and only now do I have a chance to do this. Please forgive the blinding shine of my noobness, but this is the first online journal-type place that I've been a member of. Many people already know me from the plethora of online forums of which I'm an active member (*waves to all the online friends*), and now they can all visit me here as well and enjoy a piece of my mind (as nutritiously unhealthy as that may be). I hope to keep my adoring Pullip fans happy with a steady diet of Hayley pics (just brush after viewing to avoid cavities) and also keep a log of my random eccentricities. Please don't get lost as I don't have time to constantly update the map. Welcome to my little corner of cyberspace and blame my sense of humor and sarcasm on my mother.